With the solution in hand, the labor in CORAL HUMAN ECOLOGY’S birth was then a weaving of two sources: the structural barriers and those barriers reigniting my fear of speaking.
The now sparked fear of speaking had history. The violence that had occurred through the success of FAMILY VOICES, led to re-experiencing homelessness and my departure from the university.
I felt afraid to launch CORAL HUMAN ECOLOGY, with the new work having larger reach than my previous endeavors. Reaching more people felt linked to the possibility of a greater risk of violence.
In its innovation, I would be naming things that again questioned sectors and worldviews. As with FAMILY VOICES, I persisted and was prepared to launch despite this fear. The structural barriers kept CORAL HUMAN ECOLOGY in labor stages until I was truly more ready.
As labor pains went along, the obstacles fostered new inspiration. Life also continued to give challenges and insights as life does. I worked through the hurdles and continuing life events.
In each step, I gained more clarity and the clarity deepened my healing. My readiness and capacity matured. The process brought me of age.
Brooklyn, New York, nurtured that readiness. Brooklyn brought me back home where culturally speaking and “being” was easy. I saw and felt deeply how my entire life made complete sense, as I watched and heard the Caribbean diaspora all around me.
I knew and understood the backgrounds, migrations and the strategies and hope.
The understanding allowed me to “feel” the discernment of emotional truth versus non-truth. And in truth, I would feel that there was nothing to actually fear. My truth, felt again like my source of peace, as it did in my childhood and after migrating. The familiar me and a new me, met in this advent.
At this same time, compelling life events in New York removed the structural barriers, creating a synchronicity.
Word of mouth of successful client outcomes co-occurred as a third stimulus, and the ideological planning I had done for CORAL HUMAN ECOLOGY for over 15 years, gave birth.
I had gone full circle and came of age. And from this, CORAL HUMAN ECOLOGY also came of age.